3:09 PM - Brain on hiatus (?)
Current mood: bored
Category: listening to Herion and Connection Man by Lou Reed Blogging

- don't mind my spelling as i was born a baptist

HIGH PRICE OF OIL; This is the work of bushy and his father and oil friends (now that he lost his control of congress) especially his closet friends, the Ben Laudens (remember Osama, the one bush says he doesn't think about any more; because he has his war thanks to his friend) bushy finely found a way to hit oil; have it drilled for u, then take it using the lives of americas youth.
this is a person (i do not refer to him as a man) who talks about himself when he mentions the evil of others.
What's Cheneys first name? Dick. Well, when you have a Dick and a Bush, your screwed.

I think my mind has shut off, (a lot of people have always thought that)

So what? I need to start doing something more constructive than blogging. Darn hard to do when blogs addict u like heroin.

It's mind control, that's what it is!!! lol

thoughts as writings
i'm interest in all of u out there and ur thoughts, comments and anything u would like to get off ur mind beside something commercial. if u know people who enjoy doing that or just want to grip or gossip send them to;

My URL
http://www.myspace.com/alanshologram

My Blog URL
http://blog.myspace.com/alanshologram

i'm a screen writer and always looking for deep or shallow material; anonymous of course; unless supplier wants it different.

u might want to talk about ur business or life style, as that is a great way to come up with ideas. the best ideas come from out of the blue while doing new things that have nothing to do with the ideas one wishes would come! lol

any way, here i am waiting, hoping i don't get hemroids from setting here too long on these hard library chairs while imagining the profound emails all fighting to squeeze into my computerr. lol


I have one thing u might like to see;
"Iraq for Sale" the war profiteers
Brave New Films;
Robert Greefald (?)
It's in the library under call #DVD 956.70
U can asked reference desk to order it.
It shows a little of what this war is doing to our troops and how they are being used for the profit of others -well u judge.
this will show a little about the way i feel about the war. But some people think that if u critique bushys war u are against our soldiers, when the opposite is true.
There are no good wars and the last one we needed to be in was WWII.
Because we've started so many and back tyrants we are now getting what the CIA calls "blow back" in fact there is a documentary on the CIA that talks about blow back but i can't remember the title. It's very good for thinking people; any one out there know the title? Probably "Blowback" huh
Remember to keep an open mind to knowledge, but a closed mind to violence and stupidity

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3:07 PM - Me, god and religion
Current mood: productive
Category: listing to "you got to serve somebody" b Life

- religion
Current mood: horny lol
Category: Life

1st of all "to each 's own" My distaste for religions and the god concept.
We are trained to NOT follow our deepest natural thoughts as they have been pushed so far back into our mind by the propaganda of the society we live in and the religion we're trained to that rarely can one escape it. this is why some don't understand that all i'm saying is that we are instilled with all the moral, admirable, logical, etc., traits that allow us to live a decent life in this (the USA) society, and only when religions (and lately fears instilled in us by our leaders for their own gain) add to that with illogical callings and demands that troubles start mounting up higher than we thought possible. By doing what others say for no reason other than the unwillingness to think the problem out and where it came from originally, (because we're trained not to think but to seek answers from the minister or talk show host so there isn't any reason to do all that research on important questions like war, peace, who to elect and what are they're really like when they are walking and not talking) that all the trouble starts; hate, condemning when odious traits come to bare on our logic. We'll let some book that's hardly ever read, much less studied by ourselves, be interpreted for us by, usually, people that are only interested in controlling us along with our money.

The study of this phenomena, i feel, would lead to the answers we all seek about who we are, where are we going, etc. think about it, there are a few leaders, positive and negative, and the rest followers without a clue to who they should follow, and they haven't the time to find out (work, family, etc.) yet act as if that were the most important thing in their lives!!!

take no time condeming and alot of time congratulating yourselves for trying to be positive, there is always something positive about most things. we just need to train ourselves not to let the negative influence us. yada, yada, yada

My God

I am my own God in this life. I don't leave my acts and responsibilities up to a fantasy by saying, "I'll let God take care of my life" Why is it so strange to our mind set to realize there is no other god but you, or the one you make up because you've been taught that you aren't good enough. Could it be that we have an invisible wall created by or common societies mores? Break down that wall only if u can handle a different way, an open way, of thinking and living.

We're taught two things – regardless of where or when we're born – and they are: 1) there is a god and 2) we're not it. Ground into our little brains and bodies, day after day; often backed up with emotional (shame/humiliation) and physical pain (beatings). That this god is often punitive; that we don't measure up; and that we must be sure to please him and be sure not to annoy him is a way found by others to control us cheaply. Know what he wants and just comply is all that God want according to those who want us to follow what they say, and they say, very openly, "Give me your money." God needs it.
Yet, this god seems to have done alright before money was ever invented!! Open your eyes, cast down that invisible wall and enjoy yourself, your life.

I reject this training. I refuse to live always seeking some authority outside of myself: parents (i'm a grown man), teacher, priest/minister, etc. that someone to ensure that we pause and look for a leader, before daring to try and put our thoughts into action that includes self expression in this short life. Not daring to move without first checking with an authority an external reference to be sure that it's ok. Doing this ingrains in us (during a time in our lives when we are totally dependent on those training us into this world view) not to question this god or it will punish us surely. Ours is not to ask questions, ours is to follow instructions and seek outside of ourselves for the rules to proceed. We are also taught that there is only one. That means the job is taken. It means the best we will ever be is less than a god. They actually say, "serve and follow the direction, or die" (emotionally/physically/spiritually) in one breath and "god (some) love u and will take care of u," in the next. RIGHT!

Creating this notion of the 'one god' necessitates and demands personification. Doing so then teaches us to be amenable to following the direction of 'one' in 'authority'. Without giving it this sense of a unique and powerful being, there is nothing for us to identify with. As much as we're taught that this god is not like us, we make it so , and in that way make it easier to follow political leaders blindly. It's all related.
Like something put in motion eons ago, long forgotten originators, and having simply become habit to all that followed, this intergenerational habit now has a life of its own. It just goes on and on….. most of it outside any kind of conscious thought or selection. This habit of a god is a massive charade that we willing play. It seems essential to the world that we've created. BUT IT'S NOT. It has caused more pain and suffering than all the political wars (which they were usually involved with or used for). Terrified by there threats? Such are the nasty consequences that we're so propagandized with that we have an auto (Pavlovian) response, fear of this punishing god, and, "if he's not punishing then he will be if I think like this"
It is so ingrained that it is virtually impossible for us to question our conditioning; to recognize what struggles to grow in our lives;US. This makes it almost impossible for us to wake up and see who we are. And so we struggle in our lives looking for "HIM" to guide us, when it is the U that wants to live life to its fullest.

From one conversation to the next; from one person to the next, I see the waste that iI went though before coming to myself and believing in ME. That we are small, puny, helpless from natural disasters is only a greater reason to believe in ones self, for what we need, and have the power to improve our abilities in lifes struggles. The degree to which we refuse to consider anything else to be the essence of what we are is our greatest weakness and growth stopper.

Most of us have eyes and minds with which to see. If I keep my eyes closed, along with my mind i live in a darkness as great as they in the dark ages. I must simply choose and open my eyes, along with my mind

Life changes, dramatically and profoundly when we open our eyes.
You got to serve somebody, so why not yourself.

Partly from another blog but i can't remember whose.
But c'est la vie, and as it has always been, so it will always be. So i just try to live around it. I've now become a good ducker. lol

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2:01 PM - strange science
Current mood: cold
Category: listening to "Good Night Moon" again Life

If y'al out dar is interusted in dim intellectual tangs dat cloud me mind to off'n din feast ur eyeballs on dis piece of mind bogl'n blog'n.

Go to GoodSearch.com, put in holographic model, then click "The Holographic Universe-Crystalinks" and after uall read as much as use mind can take go to the bottom and click on "creation index" for all u may want to know (and probably didn't want to know) about creation meths and especially where they originated.
After that, in the same bottom of page, click Alphabetical index of all files to really find more than u may ever thought existed in the field of the holographic principle and much, much more.
Good luck and here's to the broadening of the mind

I may look stupid, and act same, but trying hard to smarten up, while now listening to "Know One Told Me About Her" the slow version from "Kill Bill" great song. Now some Dylan "Hiway 61" and "Desolation Row" my personal favorite.

Don't forget to comment, as i need mind stimulus in my old age lol

i've finely lost it. here i am at 10:30 outside the library so i can pick up wifi to get on a high speed connection for the internet. all to check mail and casting calls, but i forgot eyes so i can hardy see what i'm doing. Senility, sure. i'm a goner,
what i need is a woman right now. that's it! women are the greatest. i must have grand ideas deep in my mind. vanity strikes again!
Saw i kid being loaded into the back of a pick up along with his twisted bike, wonder how many kids are put in the back of pick ups in Iraq and anywhere else there is a war?
check out the CIA documentary about "Blowback" (i think there is a movie by that name also) and u may come to understand our part in the world's troubles. just a thought. i have a few friends on MS but only receive comments from three but no expansions on what i blog. just two negative ones that were sent in messages but not in comments so i could post there side on my blog. u guys, send ur neg or pos comments. they're all appreciated. Being an x(?) journalist and, unlike most American media, i'm willing to show my detractor's side next to mine, not once in a while, buried in the back pages on the weekend, when every one is watching some stupid sport, getting drunk and arguing about their so important game, or beating their wives because they lost the rent money on that game. lol Cei la viegot to go. even a dummy like me knows when it's too cold at 1am. lol

- random electrical impulses swirling in brain

i'm not sure if i'm dreaming so i won't say, "i woke up this morning." let me put it this way, i keep nodding in and out of the holographic universe that we live in but don't know of, so we can't take advantage of-in a holographic way. what is that you say? what's that? it's a proven mathematical fact, demonstrated in many physics, chemical and biological labs. the funny thing about these experiments is that only a few of the researchers realized what they discovered, and worse than that, many are so indoctrinated in their fields they won't believe what they discovered; that would entail changing their old set ways.
anyway how does one explain what has just been realized since the invention on the laser? that's right, the laser has many more uses than star wars and computers. by accident man proved that everything is part of everything else.
some take this to extremes, as usual, by saying things like, "destroy one thing and you are helping destroy everything. nonsense. it only allows the creation of something else. there is no more room in the universe so things must end to start again. the universe would explode if something outside of it tried to input so much as an atom that was not of our universe. Physics.
there are many articles in science mags and books that will explain this concept, and it is fantastic. Check them out. with an open mind one can see how things that seemed ridiculous make sense when viewed by the light of the holographic principle. spirits, UFO's, deja vu, future predictions, seeing the past, etc. and i will write on the subject when i am in an intellectual frame of mind. So, don't hold breath! lol

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6:55 PM - religion/politics
Current mood: sleepy
Category: why? Life

As many average americans either went to school to learn to get a job, eat lunch (history is taught so boringly in school, who can blame them.) or are to busy now providing for their families, or just don't care after a hard days work (actually, usually a husband and wives hard days work) their views on the world politic can be strange indeed. Usually a combination of the wide eyed view we are taught in grade school and what they hear on the right wing radio talk shows. As proof that lack of knowledge can be bliss for that person but hell on the rest of the world. i'd like to know who could ever get the idea that Israel, other than a few from the "American" jewish community, have helped built this country. Israel is there to build itself, control the middle east and keep it unstable for american oil money and the high priced oil that comes from that. And we, the tax payer, pay a high price for our private Israeli mercenaries, and our arms industry thanks u. No, US, no Israel; and that is leaving out the Arabs. They have never been able to make it on their own. It is one of the biggest propaganda lies of the world.

Now I'll be called a anti semite. Most use that word to refer to jews. WRONG. The Arabs are just, and even more semite than Jews. But, too many people are conditioned to scream, "anti-semite jew hater at the first negative comment directed at the Jews. Israel is a master at deception. I, for one, admire their spin. Their greatest is the "terrorists"(there were no greater "terrorist" than the jews through out their history not just before independence, and since) phrase; bushy, or his thinkers, have push that to the limits and taken away most of our freedoms, that we once held sancrosant, with the faintest of protest. We pay the price for lack of diligence.

I'll just give u a very small piece of history-it would be of benefit to u to check my facts out, about those terrible killers from Islam.

When Islam took over the middle east and North Africa in the 7th & 8th centuries the people were under such a repressive christian empire that any other religion and all other christian religions not under Constantine's idea of christianity, were a death sentence. And, taxed to poverty. Islam allowed all religions and though they taxed only people that were not of there faith there taxes were lower than before. Jews, Christians, Moslem and others had their religious buildings side by side. And glad to be out from under the repressive Christians- they were to busy killing more of each other, for their riches, than they did other religions.
It was not until the around 1000AD that a Christian religious fanatic bishop from Egypt(?) declared Islam the worship of the devil and destroyed a mosque in Jerusalem (for its wealth) that the trouble started with the crusades etc.

One of my blogs (actually many) have disappeared. Like the one were I talk about how our industrial build-up along with the railroads to open the west was payed for by money from the opium trade. We always, in those days, followed the British. The BIG cattle ranches of the west were owned and financed by the British and their opium money. that's where they got the capital for so fast an industrial revolution.

My favorite, President Roosevelt (died on my birthday 4-12-45) came from a big monied family; money made in the opium trade in China. One of the things u will not learn in our schools, and because of that, and the naive belief that we are so pure, , and the negative consequences allows so much unchallenged corruption in our otherwise great way of government.

Government are not "good" as they are a repressive institution by nature. Our form is one of the few that allows these repression by electing people who do it for their own needs and fool us into thinking the opposite. Bushy and friends, like Imus and Rush on right wing talk radio, care nothing for America, just their own pockets. They are the ultimate lyres. Remember Rush saying, 'THEY SHOULD EXECUTE ALL DRUG USERS?" This, as he was sending his maid out to get illegal drugs for himself. He knows what brings in the ratings, lies, for his big money. He needs to be fired as much as Imus along with the rest of their type, but the media doesn't want any other side to reveal the truth about what's happening with these illegal wars and gas prices. Remember, it is easy to figure out, leave ur heart where it belongs and use ur mind. It's the money honey. Follow the money as deep throat once uttered.

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12:38 AM - thinking about Robin
Current mood: tired
Category: listing to "Saint James Infirmary" Life

Been doing a lot of thinking (yes, I have that capacity, sometimes) lately because of all the friends who died this month. Only one was old enough,72, and she died of a blood infection. The others were young in comparison, 45 & 43. My woman was 45 and died after a car accident. We had decided to break up as so I went back to LA to be with Robin who I'd fallen for hard and now she wanted to move in with me! Then Robin died and her death is the only one that really bothered me at all- sort of cold, huh? That's me. Anyway, I came back from New Mexico and was to be with her, but I was tired and didn't want to drive across town so got a motel alone instead of with her. We talked alot that last night on the phone, and I never saw her again. She didn't call the day, and didn't answer her phone-then her friend called me and said she was in this fucked up hospital, known for people never coming out alive, and died.
Now death rarely bothers me, but she was strong, vibrant, beautiful (she didn't look a day over 25- it set me back when she told me she was 43) and always there if I needed her. In short, good people, and full of love, with a little girl that I hadn't seen for a couple of months. At the services she came up to and ask if I remembered her. I said, "How could I forget my favorite." Then she put her little arms around me, and told me how much she missed me, and now she sure did miss her mom. I haven't felt emotion like that since 1986, another bad day. Anyway, it's strange how I've been without deep feelings for so long. Things that I upset others just role off my shoulders.
Sex is about the longest lasting emotion I have, and that doesn't last long without a special love.
distressed

Burying Robin
Stinking Sierra Memorial Hospital, in Sun Valley, Ca., did what they do best-let people die with as little care as possible. They need investigating, as this has happened to 4 people i know who died there and were not bad off when they went.
One friend was on life support and on her way out when her husbands sister found out she was there and had her transferred to White Memorial where all she needed was a heart valve transplant. The sister use to work there and knew what danger her sister in law was in by being there. Very lucky!!! Not so lucky for
Robin

Let me to start with a very personal poem to a very personal lover:

Now can you
fly
Then fly
Robin
Leave me to
fly

Why did you
leave?
new lover
death
New love
exquisite

Then relish in my
loss
No time our
love
our dreams smoke
now

complaints no more
forever
hades took
all
are you just
gone?

by taking my
love
Is there still
love
is it for
me?

Why, why?
Robin
My love is here
forever
But, where are you?
Gone.

Did you just
take?
Tell my
dreams
Reveal that unknown
now

Fly on
Robin
Selfish, silent
rest
in you journey
forever

You left, no
love
I could hate
you
If I didn't love
robin

sleep well
love
Sleep ? Peace ?What ?
Robin
I write to keep you
forever


the void useless, nothingness,
Enjoy
if you can the
Hologram
from your love
Alan

Only one thing to think,
C'est la vie, mylove.

Other than that I can't seem to get started. Missed 3 interviews for reading monologs- that's bad, and tired all the time so I had AIDS test- negative. Just getting old I guess.
Shooter was a good action movie. De Caprio was great in Blood Diamonds, but he's always good.
Hell, sorry, I got nothing to say- read below about the ass and the bishop for a word to the wise.

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12:04 AM - had to blog this; it's real
Current mood: tired
Category: Life

The pastor entered his donkey in a race and it won. The pastor was so pleased with the donkey that he entered in another race and it won again.

The local paper read: PASTOR'S ASS OUT FRONT.

The Bishop was so upset with this kind of publicity that he ordered the pastor not to enter the donkey in any more races.

The next day the local paper headline read: BISHOP SCRATCHES THE PASTOR'S ASS.

This was too much for the Bishop, so he ordered the pastor to get rid of the donkey. The pastor decided to give it to a nun in a nearby convent.

The local paper, hearing of the news, posted the following headline: NUN HAS THE BEST ASS IN TOWN.

The Bishop fainted. He informed the nun that she would have to get rid of the donkey so she sold it to a farmer for $10.

The next day the headlines read: NUN SELLS ASS FOR $10.

This was really too much for the Bishop, so he ordered the nun to buy back the donkey and lead it to the high plains where it could run free.

The next day the headlines read: NUN ANNOUNCES HER ASS IS WILD AND FREE.

Alas .... the Bishop was buried the next day.

MORAL OF THE STORY???

Being concerned about public opinion can bring you much grief and misery, even shorten your life. So, be yourself and enjoy life. Stop worrying about everyone else's ass and you'll live longer.

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5:05 PM - Old News, so I'll post another joke
Current mood: blah
Category: News and Politics

oh! I hit a sore spot with someone in the military who has been propagandized to the max. This is Bushys war and his father's. All our troubles are because of past presidents sucking up to big money, especially the arms industry, (the exception is Bushy who is just stupid and selfish)and the hatred it has reaped against out country. The overthrow of all those democratically elected presidents in south america and the first one in Iran. Come on read some history besides military prop. Try Mother Jones Mag.
I've been all around the world and people love Americans but hate our government for good reason; it refuses to follow the constitution.
I was a photojournalist-combat. Many wars, at least 10 I can think of and they were all caused in some way by our government interfering in antother country for large industries sake. Try Chili for copper and Iran for oil and Guatemala for bananas(the largest crop in the world,) to put in dictators that suck up to US corps. and let them get away with not paying taxes so the people of their country suffer in poverty. If we minded our own countries business and took care of the elderly, homeless(who we had few of before Reagan) medical care, retirement, etc. like some countries less wealthy than ourslves do, our governments would be loved like our people.
Please, for your own sake, get educated, don't listen to prop. study that facts from at least an unbiassed historian. At least learn how you are being fooled
into thinking so simplisticly by idiots like Bushy boy, and his apologist, who's, like the one who had his maid do the walking for drugs, greatest knowledge is about killing his own imagined pain, u know, RUSH BABY.
Institutions do things for there own benefit, not for the general good, and that goes double for the military and polititions. The grunt soldier is just ammo and target and the big companies only think about how they can use them to increase profits.
These facts are so old they're getting boring.

4:07 PM - sex
Current mood: creative
Category: Writing and Poetry

WELL, here i go again, life being the strange thing it is, and me being the strange person i am, i will now right a small story.
once in the 15th century there live a stunning lady, beloved by the whole town, who was regarded not only for her looks but for her intellignce also.
now it happened that this lady was very sensual and expressive. married to an elderly and very rich man whom she gave all the love that he could endure.
but as he was unable to fullfil the madona's desires she, being the intellect that she was, relieved those sexual tensions with a much younger man who gave to her as much passion as she gave to him.
It happened that one night the husband was unable to sleep (it was the custom in those days that husband and wife had seperate bed chambers) and as he was walking the hall past her bedroom he overheard the passion coming from both her and her lover.
Outraged at his wifes betrayal but stemming the urge to rush in and kill them both he decided to go to the magistrate and log a complaint. now the penalty for this was to be burned at the stake.
the next day the magistrate went to the madona's home with a warrant for her arrest, but being kindly desposed towards the lady he wanted her to deny the charges and so put an end to it all.
But the lady would have none of it and proceeded to court followed my many of the towns people who truely loved her for her kindnesses to the poor and sic as well as her bearing and generousity towards the whole of the town.
Being as the judge felt the same he read the charge then told the lady what punishment awaited her if she pleaded guilty. then he said to her,"all you have to do is say the charges aren't true and you will be fee to go."
But, the lady to every ones suprise, said she was only guilty of an unkind law, and addressed the court as follows'
"Dear sirs and gentle lady's am i to waste my passion on the knitting needle or sewing when i have a lover who loves me as passionatly as i love him. is this passion to turn into the naggings of an old disapointed matron, love spoiled and festering as the plague?
"Judge, ask my dear husband if i have ever refused his greatest or least desire at any time and in any manner."
The judge asked the husband to responed, and he repied that every word she said was true.
The madona then pointed out how much she loved her husband but that she had so much more to give that he was unable to recieve in his retiring years. and that further this law that she was being tried on was made by men with no imput by the women of the town and also that there was no equel law for the men, therefore the law was unfavorable towards women and should be struck down.
At this point the towns people cheered her and demanded the lady by set free, which the magistrate was more than willing to do. And this poor law was ended.
The madona and her husband injoyed many blissful nights together until he passed, and she was never to experience a regretful aging due to a lack of passion in her life. Nor was any man she favored with her love.
thank you Boccaccio

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1:02 AM - American media
Current mood: creative
Category: News and Politics

check out "fear and Favor in the News," as it will explain a lot of what i want to write & don't have the time right now.

We get all our 'news' from just a couple of ultra right wing power mad men(?) that haven't the balls to cross the large money interests. they can easily do this as they control everything we read & think- we only know what we are told, be it are parents, friends, the news from TV or papers etc. our thinking is created by our experiences- read the media.

they have such power over us due to just 2 people & the willingness of the right wing & pussy congressmen more afraid of losing votes than doing the job we elected them to do. These 2 presidents are Ronald Reagan and Bubba Bush.

There use to be laws making it illegal to own more than a few TV & radio stations so there was competition. This started to end when Reagan changed the law so that they could have more. Then Bubba Bush let them have all they wanted so the ultra right wing was poised with the help of the big moneyed interests to buy up what was left and control the small affiliates. you didn't hear much about this as they controlled any controversy thanks to the congress and the right wing talk shows. By going along they became 'stars' and made fortunes and still do.

I'm on this subject because i listened to the Nancy Grace show-comments on trials etc. this lady is a real witch with nothing to inform you about than made up gossip and self interest. She is what you get for news instead of all the trouble in the world, the government and our people she and her kind use all that expensive media time to give you crap. Why? this is a way to distract you from the real issues of our time. Score for the right wing ie., Bushie and his type of thieves. they are very good. most of the opposition is weak.

Take the vote on the war in Iraq. almost all the opposition voted for it and now they say they mad a mistake! if they were not interested in their own jobs in congress they would have campaigned against it; what they are saying is that they were not smart enough to see through Bushes lies, even though the evidence was not really hidden, it just was kept out of the mass media for big money reasons- war profits. To hell with lives, they are easily sacrificed for the biggest profits to be made in a world of wars, all thanks to Chaney and his friends. Bubba needs him to show him how to make money and power as he has never been able to do it on his own. Ben Laden's family gave him all the money he needed for his lifestyle for access to his father when he was president.

It is not the American peoples fault, they are busy making a living and trust what they hear- a trust badly misplaced and America's future will be the beneficiary of all the hatred the right wing is causing to be focused on us. All for the big profits and power. What to do? that's up to thinking people who care= the few. but the few are always the strength=negative or positive. Our country was founded by only 10% of colonists yet the Nazis did the same.  Our ultra right wing controlled with just a few, and they would be in the Nazi party if they were in Germany in the '30's. Bliss seems to be a lack of knowledge. it's up to you, temporary bliss or trying to stop hatred of us by stopping people from making money on the corpses of our freedoms.PS try Canadian news or Germany, England, Italian, Lebanon, etc. Then compare but listen closely as US news is subtle in a way so you think what is important isn't example. Police chases. very important to scare you about crime that is not rising but you would think so viewing that shit.

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3:01 AM - laughter
Current mood: tired
Category: lost of music Life

Laughter keeps me alive. Went throught Carlsbad Caverns aftera little smoke. Now I don't smoke as it makes me feel awful, but a friend of mine said he did it & it was very different when walking through the caverns. So, he was right! We came upon a guide at the "great wall of china," (the girl i was with and i) and we started pointing out different ilusions to each other.
Well, all 3 of us suddenly came to the realization that we had all smoked, without a word said. We just started laughing and it was hard to stop. But the really funny thing was that we looked back and there were at least 20 people listing to everything we pointed out, and they hadn't a clue to why we were all raped up in pointing things out only that they were enjoying it so much. They were just enjoying it with us and laughed too. That put us into another laughter fit. Everyone was great.

Then i came home & read a bulletin I received from a friend on my space. A great joke about rednecks-more laughter and a great end to my day. Sleepy time, time.

Laughter puts your mind right.

Current mood: contemplative

Actually, the category is science, but it isn't up there.
If any body out there is interest is dim intellectual tangs dat cloud me mind to often din feast ur eyeballs on dis piece of mind bogl'n.

Go to GoodSearch.com, put in holographic model, then click "The Holographic Universe-Crystalinks" and after uall read as much as use mind can take go to the bottom and click on "creation index" for all u may want to know (and probably didn't want to know) about creation meths and especially where they originated.
After that, in the same bottom of page, click Alphabetical index of all files to really find more than u may ever thought existed in the field of the holographic principle and much, much more.
Good luck and here's to the broadening of the mind

I may look stupid, and act same, but trying hard to smarten up, while now listening to "Know One Told Me About Her" the slow version from "Kill Bill" great song. Now some Dylan "Hiway 61" and "Desolation Row" my personal favorite.

Don't forget to comment, as i need mind stimulus in my old age lol

6:55 PM - religion/politics
Current mood: sleepy
Category: why? Life

As many average americans either went to school to learn to get a job, eat lunch (history is taught so boringly in school, who can blame them.) or are to busy now providing for their families, or just don't care after a hard days work (actually, usually a husband and wives hard days work) their views on the world politic can be strange indeed. Usually a combination of the wide eyed view we are taught in grade school and what they hear on the right wing radio talk shows. As proof that lack of knowledge can be bliss for that person but hell on the rest of the world. i'd like to know who could ever get the idea that Israel, other than a few from the "American" jewish community, have helped built this country. Israel is there to build itself, control the middle east and keep it unstable for american oil money and the high priced oil that comes from that. And we, the tax payer, pay a high price for our private Israeli mercenaries, and our arms industry thanks u. No, US, no Israel; and that is leaving out the Arabs. They have never been able to make it on their own. It is one of the biggest propaganda lies of the world.

Now I'll be called a anti semite. Most use that word to refer to jews. WRONG. The Arabs are just, and even more semite than Jews. But, too many people are conditioned to scream, "anti-semite jew hater at the first negative comment directed at the Jews. Israel is a master at deception. I, for one, admire their spin. Their greatest is the "terrorists"(there were no greater "terrorist" than the jews through out their history not just before independence, and since) phrase; bushy, or his thinkers, have push that to the limits and taken away most of our freedoms, that we once held sancrosant, with the faintest of protest. We pay the price for lack of diligence.

I'll just give u a very small piece of history-it would be of benefit to u to check my facts out, about those terrible killers from Islam.

When Islam took over the middle east and North Africa in the 7th & 8th centuries the people were under such a repressive christian empire that any other religion and all other christian religions not under Constantine's idea of christianity, were a death sentence. And, taxed to poverty. Islam allowed all religions and though they taxed only people that were not of there faith there taxes were lower than before. Jews, Christians, Moslem and others had their religious buildings side by side. And glad to be out from under the repressive Christians- they were to busy killing more of each other, for their riches, than they did other religions.
It was not until the around 1000AD that a Christian religious fanatic bishop from Egypt(?) declared Islam the worship of the devil and destroyed a mosque in Jerusalem (for its wealth) that the trouble started with the crusades etc.

One of my blogs (actually many) have disappeared. Like the one were I talk about how our industrial build-up along with the railroads to open the west was payed for by money from the opium trade. We always, in those days, followed the British. The BIG cattle ranches of the west were owned and financed by the British and their opium money. that's where they got the capital for so fast an industrial revolution.

My favorite, President Roosevelt (died on my birthday 4-12-45) came from a big monied family; money made in the opium trade in China. One of the things u will not learn in our schools, and because of that, and the naive belief that we are so pure, , and the negative consequences allows so much unchallenged corruption in our otherwise great way of government.

Government are not "good" as they are a repressive institution by nature. Our form is one of the few that allows these repression by electing people who do it for their own needs and fool us into thinking the opposite. Bushy and friends, like Imus and Rush on right wing talk radio, care nothing for America, just their own pockets. They are the ultimate lyres. Remember Rush saying, 'THEY SHOULD EXECUTE ALL DRUG USERS?" This, as he was sending his maid out to get illegal drugs for himself. He knows what brings in the ratings, lies, for his big money. He needs to be fired as much as Imus along with the rest of their type, but the media doesn't want any other side to reveal the truth about what's happening with these illegal wars and gas prices. Remember, it is easy to figure out, leave ur heart where it belongs and use ur mind. It's the money honey. Follow the money as deep throat once uttered.

5:39 PM - wars
Current mood: drained
Category: Life

I have one thing u might like to see;
"Iraq for Sale" the war profiteers
Brave New Films;
Robert Greefald (?)
It's in the library under call #DVD 956.70
U can asked reference desk to order it.
It shows a little of what this war is doing to our troops and how they are being used for the profit of others -well u judge.
this will show a little about the way i feel about the war. But some people think that if u critique bushys war u are against our soldiers, when the opposite is true.
There are no good wars and the last one we needed to be in was WWII.
Because we've started so many and back tyrants we are now getting what the CIA calls "blow back" in fact there is a documentary on the CIA that talks about blow back but i can't remember the title. Very good though for thinking people; any one out there know the title?

1:33 PM - Environment
Current mood: devious
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes

KEEP AMERICA GREEN, PLANT A BUSH IN TEXAS

now u can know me without asking, wish others egos weren't bent out of shape and they were open to the world as i am.

Remember what I said before;

Vanity is the killer of the soul
Vanity, vanity, all is vanity.

some tings about me; see MySpace.com/alanshologram

1. What is your full name?
alan b

2. When is your Birthday?
april 12

3. What is your e-mail address?
ihologram@yahoo.com; send all the shit here.

4. Do you smoke?
no

5.How many sexual partners have you had?
who knows

6. If you can't answer, is it really that many?
probably

7. Can you cook?
yes

8. What was your dream growing up?
to rob an armored car

9. What talent do you wish you had?
be able to speed read

10. Favorite place?
Amsterdam

11. Favorite vegetable?
asparagus

12. What was the last book you read?
Buccaccio's "The Decameron"

13. What zodiac sign are u ?
aries

14. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?
2 in left ear- i did take this survey before!!lol

15. Worst Habit?
getting old

16. Do we know each other outside of myspace?
some of u

17. What is your favorite sport?
motorcycle riding, hiking

18. Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
neither, neutral

19. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
i told u. try to keep it stuck if ur a woman


20. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
people dying while i held them

21. Tell me one weird fact about you:
i will do what others usually shy away from

22. Do have any pets?
birds

23. Do u know how to do the macerana?
what's that

24. What time is it where u are now?
4:10 pm

25. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
neither, they're funny

26. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be???
scares

27. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
cp

28. What color eyes do you have?
hazel

29. Ever been arrested?
many times in my youth, then i grew up!

30. What is your favorite drink?
orange juice

31. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it?
buy HD video camera

32. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew?
i don't

33. What 's your favorite place to hang at?
with my woman, or was

34. Do you believe in ghosts?
could be, in the hologram

35. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
MP or sleep, but little of that-spare time

36. Do you swear a lot?
no, what for?

37. Biggest pet peeve?
others swearing

38. In one word, how would you describe yourself?
wonderful

39. Do you believe in God?
hell no

40. What is your favorite thing about me?
u seem nice; the person who sent this. i have my doubts about the rest of u. lol
41.What is your zip code?
91407

42. What city do you live in?
van nuys, now

43. What is your favorite TV show?
history international

44. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
went to all my friends and now is blogged.

1:31 PM - truth
Current mood: amused
Category: Friends

Are you tired of all those sissy "friendship" poems that always

sound good, but never actually come close to reality? Well, here is a

series of promises that really speaks to true friendship:



1. When you are sad - I will help you get drunk and plot revenge against

the sorry bastard who made you sad.

2. When you are blue - I will try to dislodge whatever is choking you.

3. When you smile - I will know you finally got laid.

4. When you are scared - I will rag on you about it every chance I get.

5. When you are worried - I will tell you horrible stories about how much

worse it could be and to quit whining.

6. When you are confused - I will use little words.

7. When you are sick - Stay the hell away from me until you are well

again. I don't want whatever you have.

8. When you fall - I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass

12:36 AM - bushy
Current mood: crappy
Category: Life

Keep America green, plant a Bush in Texas

4:15 PM - thinking about Robin
Current mood: tired
Category: Life

Been doing a lot of thinking (yes, I have that capacity, sometimes) lately because of all the friends who died this month. Only one was old enough,72, and she died of a blood infection. The others were young in comparison, 45 & 43. My woman was 45 and died after a car accident. We had decided to break up as so as I went back to LA. Then there was Robin whos death is the only one that really bothered me at all- sort of cold, huh? That's me. Anyway, I came back from New Mexico and was to be with her, but I was tired and didn't want to drive across town so got a motel alone instead of with her. We talked alot that last night on the phone, and I never saw her again. She didn't call the day, and didn't answer her phone-then her friend called me and said she was in this fucked up hospital, known for people never coming out alive, and died.
Now death rarely bothers me, but she was strong, vibrant, beautiful (she didn't look a day over 25- it set me back when she told me) and always there if I needed her. In short, good people, and full of love, with a little girl that I hadn't seen for a couple of months. At the services she came up to and ask if I remembered her. I said, "How could I forget my favorite." Then she put her little arms around me, and told me how much she missed me, and now she sure did miss her mom. I haven't felt emotion like that since 1986, another bad day. Anyway, it's strange how I've been without deep feelings for so long. Things that I see upset others just role off my shoulders.
Sex is about the longest lasting emotion I have, and that doesn't last long without a special love.

Other than that I can't seem to get started. Missed 3 interviews for reading monologs- that's bad, and tired all the time so I had AIDS test- negative. Just getting old I guess.
Shooter was a good action movie. De Caprio was great in Blood Diamonds, but he's always good.
Hell, sorry, I got nothing to say- read below about the ass and the bishop for a word to the wise.

12:04 AM - had to blog this; it's real
Current mood: tired
Category: Life

The pastor entered his donkey in a race and it won. The pastor was so pleased with the donkey that he entered in another race and it won again.

The local paper read: PASTOR'S ASS OUT FRONT.

The Bishop was so upset with this kind of publicity that he ordered the pastor not to enter the donkey in any more races.

The next day the local paper headline read: BISHOP SCRATCHES THE PASTOR'S ASS.

This was too much for the Bishop, so he ordered the pastor to get rid of the donkey. The pastor decided to give it to a nun in a nearby convent.

The local paper, hearing of the news, posted the following headline: NUN HAS THE BEST ASS IN TOWN.

The Bishop fainted. He informed the nun that she would have to get rid of the donkey so she sold it to a farmer for $10.

The next day the headlines read: NUN SELLS ASS FOR $10.

This was really too much for the Bishop, so he ordered the nun to buy back the donkey and lead it to the high plains where it could run free.

The next day the headlines read: NUN ANNOUNCES HER ASS IS WILD AND FREE.

Alas .... the Bishop was buried the next day.

MORAL OF THE STORY???

Being concerned about public opinion can bring you much grief and misery, even shorten your life. So, be yourself and enjoy life. Stop worrying about everyone else's ass and you'll live longer.

does all that tell u a little about me?

Current mood: contemplative

Actually, the category is science, but it isn't up there.
If any body out there is interest is dim intellectual tangs dat cloud me mind to often din feast ur eyeballs on dis piece of mind bogl'n.

Go to GoodSearch.com, put in holographic model, then click "The Holographic Universe-Crystalinks" and after uall read as much as use mind can take go to the bottom and click on "creation index" for all u may want to know (and probably didn't want to know) about creation meths and especially where they originated.
After that, in the same bottom of page, click Alphabetical index of all files to really find more than u may ever thought existed in the field of the holographic principle and much, much more.
Good luck and here's to the broadening of the mind

I may look stupid, and act same, but trying hard to smarten up, while now listening to "Know One Told Me About Her" the slow version from "Kill Bill" great song. Now some Dylan "Hiway 61" and "Desolation Row" my personal favorite.

Don't forget to comment, as i need mind stimulus in my old age lol

6:55 PM - religion/politics
Current mood: sleepy
Category: why? Life

As many average americans either went to school to learn to get a job, eat lunch (history is taught so boringly in school, who can blame them.) or are to busy now providing for their families, or just don't care after a hard days work (actually, usually a husband and wives hard days work) their views on the world politic can be strange indeed. Usually a combination of the wide eyed view we are taught in grade school and what they hear on the right wing radio talk shows. As proof that lack of knowledge can be bliss for that person but hell on the rest of the world. i'd like to know who could ever get the idea that Israel, other than a few from the "American" jewish community, have helped built this country. Israel is there to build itself, control the middle east and keep it unstable for american oil money and the high priced oil that comes from that. And we, the tax payer, pay a high price for our private Israeli mercenaries, and our arms industry thanks u. No, US, no Israel; and that is leaving out the Arabs. They have never been able to make it on their own. It is one of the biggest propaganda lies of the world.

Now I'll be called a anti semite. Most use that word to refer to jews. WRONG. The Arabs are just, and even more semite than Jews. But, too many people are conditioned to scream, "anti-semite jew hater at the first negative comment directed at the Jews. Israel is a master at deception. I, for one, admire their spin. Their greatest is the "terrorists"(there were no greater "terrorist" than the jews through out their history not just before independence, and since) phrase; bushy, or his thinkers, have push that to the limits and taken away most of our freedoms, that we once held sancrosant, with the faintest of protest. We pay the price for lack of diligence.

I'll just give u a very small piece of history-it would be of benefit to u to check my facts out, about those terrible killers from Islam.

When Islam took over the middle east and North Africa in the 7th & 8th centuries the people were under such a repressive christian empire that any other religion and all other christian religions not under Constantine's idea of christianity, were a death sentence. And, taxed to poverty. Islam allowed all religions and though they taxed only people that were not of there faith there taxes were lower than before. Jews, Christians, Moslem and others had their religious buildings side by side. And glad to be out from under the repressive Christians- they were to busy killing more of each other, for their riches, than they did other religions.
It was not until the around 1000AD that a Christian religious fanatic bishop from Egypt(?) declared Islam the worship of the devil and destroyed a mosque in Jerusalem (for its wealth) that the trouble started with the crusades etc.

One of my blogs (actually many) have disappeared. Like the one were I talk about how our industrial build-up along with the railroads to open the west was payed for by money from the opium trade. We always, in those days, followed the British. The BIG cattle ranches of the west were owned and financed by the British and their opium money. that's where they got the capital for so fast an industrial revolution.

My favorite, President Roosevelt (died on my birthday 4-12-45) came from a big monied family; money made in the opium trade in China. One of the things u will not learn in our schools, and because of that, and the naive belief that we are so pure, , and the negative consequences allows so much unchallenged corruption in our otherwise great way of government.

Government are not "good" as they are a repressive institution by nature. Our form is one of the few that allows these repression by electing people who do it for their own needs and fool us into thinking the opposite. Bushy and friends, like Imus and Rush on right wing talk radio, care nothing for America, just their own pockets. They are the ultimate lyres. Remember Rush saying, 'THEY SHOULD EXECUTE ALL DRUG USERS?" This, as he was sending his maid out to get illegal drugs for himself. He knows what brings in the ratings, lies, for his big money. He needs to be fired as much as Imus along with the rest of their type, but the media doesn't want any other side to reveal the truth about what's happening with these illegal wars and gas prices. Remember, it is easy to figure out, leave ur heart where it belongs and use ur mind. It's the money honey. Follow the money as deep throat once uttered.

5:39 PM - wars
Current mood: drained
Category: Life

I have one thing u might like to see;
"Iraq for Sale" the war profiteers
Brave New Films;
Robert Greefald (?)
It's in the library under call #DVD 956.70
U can asked reference desk to order it.
It shows a little of what this war is doing to our troops and how they are being used for the profit of others -well u judge.
this will show a little about the way i feel about the war. But some people think that if u critique bushys war u are against our soldiers, when the opposite is true.
There are no good wars and the last one we needed to be in was WWII.
Because we've started so many and back tyrants we are now getting what the CIA calls "blow back" in fact there is a documentary on the CIA that talks about blow back but i can't remember the title. Very good though for thinking people; any one out there know the title?

1:33 PM - Environment
Current mood: devious
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes

KEEP AMERICA GREEN, PLANT A BUSH IN TEXAS

now u can know me without asking, wish others egos weren't bent out of shape and they were open to the world as i am.

Remember what I said before;

Vanity is the killer of the soul
Vanity, vanity, all is vanity.

some tings about me; see MySpace.com/alanshologram

1. What is your full name?
alan b

2. When is your Birthday?
april 12

3. What is your e-mail address?
ihologram@yahoo.com; send all the shit here.

4. Do you smoke?
no

5.How many sexual partners have you had?
who knows

6. If you can't answer, is it really that many?
probably

7. Can you cook?
yes

8. What was your dream growing up?
to rob an armored car

9. What talent do you wish you had?
be able to speed read

10. Favorite place?
Amsterdam

11. Favorite vegetable?
asparagus

12. What was the last book you read?
Buccaccio's "The Decameron"

13. What zodiac sign are u ?
aries

14. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?
2 in left ear- i did take this survey before!!lol

15. Worst Habit?
getting old

16. Do we know each other outside of myspace?
some of u

17. What is your favorite sport?
motorcycle riding, hiking

18. Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
neither, neutral

19. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
i told u. try to keep it stuck if ur a woman


20. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
people dying while i held them

21. Tell me one weird fact about you:
i will do what others usually shy away from

22. Do have any pets?
birds

23. Do u know how to do the macerana?
what's that

24. What time is it where u are now?
4:10 pm

25. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
neither, they're funny

26. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be???
scares

27. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
cp

28. What color eyes do you have?
hazel

29. Ever been arrested?
many times in my youth, then i grew up!

30. What is your favorite drink?
orange juice

31. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it?
buy HD video camera

32. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew?
i don't

33. What 's your favorite place to hang at?
with my woman, or was

34. Do you believe in ghosts?
could be, in the hologram

35. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
MP or sleep, but little of that-spare time

36. Do you swear a lot?
no, what for?

37. Biggest pet peeve?
others swearing

38. In one word, how would you describe yourself?
wonderful

39. Do you believe in God?
hell no

40. What is your favorite thing about me?
u seem nice; the person who sent this. i have my doubts about the rest of u. lol
41.What is your zip code?
91407

42. What city do you live in?
van nuys, now

43. What is your favorite TV show?
history international

44. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
went to all my friends and now is blogged.

1:31 PM - truth
Current mood: amused
Category: Friends

Are you tired of all those sissy "friendship" poems that always

sound good, but never actually come close to reality? Well, here is a

series of promises that really speaks to true friendship:



1. When you are sad - I will help you get drunk and plot revenge against

the sorry bastard who made you sad.

2. When you are blue - I will try to dislodge whatever is choking you.

3. When you smile - I will know you finally got laid.

4. When you are scared - I will rag on you about it every chance I get.

5. When you are worried - I will tell you horrible stories about how much

worse it could be and to quit whining.

6. When you are confused - I will use little words.

7. When you are sick - Stay the hell away from me until you are well

again. I don't want whatever you have.

8. When you fall - I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass

12:36 AM - bushy
Current mood: crappy
Category: Life

Keep America green, plant a Bush in Texas

4:15 PM - thinking about Robin
Current mood: tired
Category: Life

Been doing a lot of thinking (yes, I have that capacity, sometimes) lately because of all the friends who died this month. Only one was old enough,72, and she died of a blood infection. The others were young in comparison, 45 & 43. My woman was 45 and died after a car accident. We had decided to break up as so as I went back to LA. Then there was Robin whos death is the only one that really bothered me at all- sort of cold, huh? That's me. Anyway, I came back from New Mexico and was to be with her, but I was tired and didn't want to drive across town so got a motel alone instead of with her. We talked alot that last night on the phone, and I never saw her again. She didn't call the day, and didn't answer her phone-then her friend called me and said she was in this fucked up hospital, known for people never coming out alive, and died.
Now death rarely bothers me, but she was strong, vibrant, beautiful (she didn't look a day over 25- it set me back when she told me) and always there if I needed her. In short, good people, and full of love, with a little girl that I hadn't seen for a couple of months. At the services she came up to and ask if I remembered her. I said, "How could I forget my favorite." Then she put her little arms around me, and told me how much she missed me, and now she sure did miss her mom. I haven't felt emotion like that since 1986, another bad day. Anyway, it's strange how I've been without deep feelings for so long. Things that I see upset others just role off my shoulders.
Sex is about the longest lasting emotion I have, and that doesn't last long without a special love.

Other than that I can't seem to get started. Missed 3 interviews for reading monologs- that's bad, and tired all the time so I had AIDS test- negative. Just getting old I guess.
Shooter was a good action movie. De Caprio was great in Blood Diamonds, but he's always good.
Hell, sorry, I got nothing to say- read below about the ass and the bishop for a word to the wise.

12:04 AM - had to blog this; it's real
Current mood: tired
Category: Life

The pastor entered his donkey in a race and it won. The pastor was so pleased with the donkey that he entered in another race and it won again.

The local paper read: PASTOR'S ASS OUT FRONT.

The Bishop was so upset with this kind of publicity that he ordered the pastor not to enter the donkey in any more races.

The next day the local paper headline read: BISHOP SCRATCHES THE PASTOR'S ASS.

This was too much for the Bishop, so he ordered the pastor to get rid of the donkey. The pastor decided to give it to a nun in a nearby convent.

The local paper, hearing of the news, posted the following headline: NUN HAS THE BEST ASS IN TOWN.

The Bishop fainted. He informed the nun that she would have to get rid of the donkey so she sold it to a farmer for $10.

The next day the headlines read: NUN SELLS ASS FOR $10.

This was really too much for the Bishop, so he ordered the nun to buy back the donkey and lead it to the high plains where it could run free.

The next day the headlines read: NUN ANNOUNCES HER ASS IS WILD AND FREE.

Alas .... the Bishop was buried the next day.

MORAL OF THE STORY???

Being concerned about public opinion can bring you much grief and misery, even shorten your life. So, be yourself and enjoy life. Stop worrying about everyone else's ass and you'll live longer.

does all that tell u a little about me?

Current mood: contemplative

Actually, the category is science, but it isn't up there.
If any body out there is interest is dim intellectual tangs dat cloud me mind to often din feast ur eyeballs on dis piece of mind bogl'n.

Go to GoodSearch.com, put in holographic model, then click "The Holographic Universe-Crystalinks" and after uall read as much as use mind can take go to the bottom and click on "creation index" for all u may want to know (and probably didn't want to know) about creation meths and especially where they originated.
After that, in the same bottom of page, click Alphabetical index of all files to really find more than u may ever thought existed in the field of the holographic principle and much, much more.
Good luck and here's to the broadening of the mind

I may look stupid, and act same, but trying hard to smarten up, while now listening to "Know One Told Me About Her" the slow version from "Kill Bill" great song. Now some Dylan "Hiway 61" and "Desolation Row" my personal favorite.

Don't forget to comment, as i need mind stimulus in my old age lol

6:55 PM - religion/politics
Current mood: sleepy
Category: why? Life

As many average americans either went to school to learn to get a job, eat lunch (history is taught so boringly in school, who can blame them.) or are to busy now providing for their families, or just don't care after a hard days work (actually, usually a husband and wives hard days work) their views on the world politic can be strange indeed. Usually a combination of the wide eyed view we are taught in grade school and what they hear on the right wing radio talk shows. As proof that lack of knowledge can be bliss for that person but hell on the rest of the world. i'd like to know who could ever get the idea that Israel, other than a few from the "American" jewish community, have helped built this country. Israel is there to build itself, control the middle east and keep it unstable for american oil money and the high priced oil that comes from that. And we, the tax payer, pay a high price for our private Israeli mercenaries, and our arms industry thanks u. No, US, no Israel; and that is leaving out the Arabs. They have never been able to make it on their own. It is one of the biggest propaganda lies of the world.

Now I'll be called a anti semite. Most use that word to refer to jews. WRONG. The Arabs are just, and even more semite than Jews. But, too many people are conditioned to scream, "anti-semite jew hater at the first negative comment directed at the Jews. Israel is a master at deception. I, for one, admire their spin. Their greatest is the "terrorists"(there were no greater "terrorist" than the jews through out their history not just before independence, and since) phrase; bushy, or his thinkers, have push that to the limits and taken away most of our freedoms, that we once held sancrosant, with the faintest of protest. We pay the price for lack of diligence.

I'll just give u a very small piece of history-it would be of benefit to u to check my facts out, about those terrible killers from Islam.

When Islam took over the middle east and North Africa in the 7th & 8th centuries the people were under such a repressive christian empire that any other religion and all other christian religions not under Constantine's idea of christianity, were a death sentence. And, taxed to poverty. Islam allowed all religions and though they taxed only people that were not of there faith there taxes were lower than before. Jews, Christians, Moslem and others had their religious buildings side by side. And glad to be out from under the repressive Christians- they were to busy killing more of each other, for their riches, than they did other religions.
It was not until the around 1000AD that a Christian religious fanatic bishop from Egypt(?) declared Islam the worship of the devil and destroyed a mosque in Jerusalem (for its wealth) that the trouble started with the crusades etc.

One of my blogs (actually many) have disappeared. Like the one were I talk about how our industrial build-up along with the railroads to open the west was payed for by money from the opium trade. We always, in those days, followed the British. The BIG cattle ranches of the west were owned and financed by the British and their opium money. that's where they got the capital for so fast an industrial revolution.

My favorite, President Roosevelt (died on my birthday 4-12-45) came from a big monied family; money made in the opium trade in China. One of the things u will not learn in our schools, and because of that, and the naive belief that we are so pure, , and the negative consequences allows so much unchallenged corruption in our otherwise great way of government.

Government are not "good" as they are a repressive institution by nature. Our form is one of the few that allows these repression by electing people who do it for their own needs and fool us into thinking the opposite. Bushy and friends, like Imus and Rush on right wing talk radio, care nothing for America, just their own pockets. They are the ultimate lyres. Remember Rush saying, 'THEY SHOULD EXECUTE ALL DRUG USERS?" This, as he was sending his maid out to get illegal drugs for himself. He knows what brings in the ratings, lies, for his big money. He needs to be fired as much as Imus along with the rest of their type, but the media doesn't want any other side to reveal the truth about what's happening with these illegal wars and gas prices. Remember, it is easy to figure out, leave ur heart where it belongs and use ur mind. It's the money honey. Follow the money as deep throat once uttered.

5:39 PM - wars
Current mood: drained
Category: Life

I have one thing u might like to see;
"Iraq for Sale" the war profiteers
Brave New Films;
Robert Greefald (?)
It's in the library under call #DVD 956.70
U can asked reference desk to order it.
It shows a little of what this war is doing to our troops and how they are being used for the profit of others -well u judge.
this will show a little about the way i feel about the war. But some people think that if u critique bushys war u are against our soldiers, when the opposite is true.
There are no good wars and the last one we needed to be in was WWII.
Because we've started so many and back tyrants we are now getting what the CIA calls "blow back" in fact there is a documentary on the CIA that talks about blow back but i can't remember the title. Very good though for thinking people; any one out there know the title?

1:33 PM - Environment
Current mood: devious
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes

KEEP AMERICA GREEN, PLANT A BUSH IN TEXAS

now u can know me without asking, wish others egos weren't bent out of shape and they were open to the world as i am.

Remember what I said before;

Vanity is the killer of the soul
Vanity, vanity, all is vanity.

some tings about me; see MySpace.com/alanshologram

1. What is your full name?
alan b

2. When is your Birthday?
april 12

3. What is your e-mail address?
ihologram@yahoo.com; send all the shit here.

4. Do you smoke?
no

5.How many sexual partners have you had?
who knows

6. If you can't answer, is it really that many?
probably

7. Can you cook?
yes

8. What was your dream growing up?
to rob an armored car

9. What talent do you wish you had?
be able to speed read

10. Favorite place?
Amsterdam

11. Favorite vegetable?
asparagus

12. What was the last book you read?
Buccaccio's "The Decameron"

13. What zodiac sign are u ?
aries

14. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?
2 in left ear- i did take this survey before!!lol

15. Worst Habit?
getting old

16. Do we know each other outside of myspace?
some of u

17. What is your favorite sport?
motorcycle riding, hiking

18. Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
neither, neutral

19. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
i told u. try to keep it stuck if ur a woman


20. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
people dying while i held them

21. Tell me one weird fact about you:
i will do what others usually shy away from

22. Do have any pets?
birds

23. Do u know how to do the macerana?
what's that

24. What time is it where u are now?
4:10 pm

25. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
neither, they're funny

26. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be???
scares

27. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
cp

28. What color eyes do you have?
hazel

29. Ever been arrested?
many times in my youth, then i grew up!

30. What is your favorite drink?
orange juice

31. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it?
buy HD video camera

32. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew?
i don't

33. What 's your favorite place to hang at?
with my woman, or was

34. Do you believe in ghosts?
could be, in the hologram

35. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
MP or sleep, but little of that-spare time

36. Do you swear a lot?
no, what for?

37. Biggest pet peeve?
others swearing

38. In one word, how would you describe yourself?
wonderful

39. Do you believe in God?
hell no

40. What is your favorite thing about me?
u seem nice; the person who sent this. i have my doubts about the rest of u. lol
41.What is your zip code?
91407

42. What city do you live in?
van nuys, now

43. What is your favorite TV show?
history international

44. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
went to all my friends and now is blogged.

1:31 PM - truth
Current mood: amused
Category: Friends

Are you tired of all those sissy "friendship" poems that always

sound good, but never actually come close to reality? Well, here is a

series of promises that really speaks to true friendship:



1. When you are sad - I will help you get drunk and plot revenge against

the sorry bastard who made you sad.

2. When you are blue - I will try to dislodge whatever is choking you.

3. When you smile - I will know you finally got laid.

4. When you are scared - I will rag on you about it every chance I get.

5. When you are worried - I will tell you horrible stories about how much

worse it could be and to quit whining.

6. When you are confused - I will use little words.

7. When you are sick - Stay the hell away from me until you are well

again. I don't want whatever you have.

8. When you fall - I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass

12:36 AM - bushy
Current mood: crappy
Category: Life

Keep America green, plant a Bush in Texas

4:15 PM - thinking about Robin
Current mood: tired
Category: Life

Been doing a lot of thinking (yes, I have that capacity, sometimes) lately because of all the friends who died this month. Only one was old enough,72, and she died of a blood infection. The others were young in comparison, 45 & 43. My woman was 45 and died after a car accident. We had decided to break up as so as I went back to LA. Then there was Robin whos death is the only one that really bothered me at all- sort of cold, huh? That's me. Anyway, I came back from New Mexico and was to be with her, but I was tired and didn't want to drive across town so got a motel alone instead of with her. We talked alot that last night on the phone, and I never saw her again. She didn't call the day, and didn't answer her phone-then her friend called me and said she was in this fucked up hospital, known for people never coming out alive, and died.
Now death rarely bothers me, but she was strong, vibrant, beautiful (she didn't look a day over 25- it set me back when she told me) and always there if I needed her. In short, good people, and full of love, with a little girl that I hadn't seen for a couple of months. At the services she came up to and ask if I remembered her. I said, "How could I forget my favorite." Then she put her little arms around me, and told me how much she missed me, and now she sure did miss her mom. I haven't felt emotion like that since 1986, another bad day. Anyway, it's strange how I've been without deep feelings for so long. Things that I see upset others just role off my shoulders.
Sex is about the longest lasting emotion I have, and that doesn't last long without a special love.

Other than that I can't seem to get started. Missed 3 interviews for reading monologs- that's bad, and tired all the time so I had AIDS test- negative. Just getting old I guess.
Shooter was a good action movie. De Caprio was great in Blood Diamonds, but he's always good.
Hell, sorry, I got nothing to say- read below about the ass and the bishop for a word to the wise.

12:04 AM - had to blog this; it's real
Current mood: tired
Category: Life

The pastor entered his donkey in a race and it won. The pastor was so pleased with the donkey that he entered in another race and it won again.

The local paper read: PASTOR'S ASS OUT FRONT.

The Bishop was so upset with this kind of publicity that he ordered the pastor not to enter the donkey in any more races.

The next day the local paper headline read: BISHOP SCRATCHES THE PASTOR'S ASS.

This was too much for the Bishop, so he ordered the pastor to get rid of the donkey. The pastor decided to give it to a nun in a nearby convent.

The local paper, hearing of the news, posted the following headline: NUN HAS THE BEST ASS IN TOWN.

The Bishop fainted. He informed the nun that she would have to get rid of the donkey so she sold it to a farmer for $10.

The next day the headlines read: NUN SELLS ASS FOR $10.

This was really too much for the Bishop, so he ordered the nun to buy back the donkey and lead it to the high plains where it could run free.

The next day the headlines read: NUN ANNOUNCES HER ASS IS WILD AND FREE.

Alas .... the Bishop was buried the next day.

MORAL OF THE STORY???

Being concerned about public opinion can bring you much grief and misery, even shorten your life. So, be yourself and enjoy life. Stop worrying about everyone else's ass and you'll live longer.

does all that tell u a little about me?

1:39 PM - holographic universe +
Current mood: contemplative

Actually, the category is science, but it isn't up there.
If any body out there is interest is dim intellectual tangs dat cloud me mind to often din feast ur eyeballs on dis piece of mind bogl'n.

Go to GoodSearch.com, put in holographic model, then click "The Holographic Universe-Crystalinks" and after uall read as much as use mind can take go to the bottom and click on "creation index" for all u may want to know (and probably didn't want to know) about creation meths and especially where they originated.
After that, in the same bottom of page, click Alphabetical index of all files to really find more than u may ever thought existed in the field of the holographic principle and much, much more.
Good luck and here's to the broadening of the mind

I may look stupid, and act same, but trying hard to smarten up, while now listening to "Know One Told Me About Her" the slow version from "Kill Bill" great song. Now some Dylan "Hiway 61" and "Desolation Row" my personal favorite.

Don't forget to comment, as i need mind stimulus in my old age lol

3:32 PM - oil prices/fighting back
Current mood: annoyed
Category: News and Politics

On May 15th all myspace members; please do not go to the gas station in protest high gas prices. Gas is now over $3.00 to 3.50 a gallon in most places. There are 72,110,073 members currently on the network, and the average car takes about $50 to 75 dollars to fill up. If all myspace members did not go to the pump on the 15th it would cost oil companies (and by proxy congress) enough to get their attention in the only place that counts, the bottom line. so please do not go to the gas station on May 15th and lets try to get the oil industries attention for at least one day.

If you agree (which I cant see why you wouldnt) copy and bulletin this;

Don't pump gas on May 15th

This is the work of bushy and his father and oil friends (now that he lost his control of congress) especially his closet friends, the Ben Laudens (remember Osama, the one bush says he doesn't think about any more; because he has his war thanks to his friend) bushy finely found a way to hit oil; have it drilled for u, then take it using the lives of americas youth.

this is a person (i do not refer to him as a man) who talks about himself when he mentions the evil of others.

6:55 PM - religion/politics
Current mood: sleepy
Category: why? Life

As many average americans either went to school to learn to get a job, eat lunch (history is taught so boringly in school, who can blame them.) or are to busy now providing for their families, or just don't care after a hard days work (actually, usually a husband and wives hard days work) their views on the world politic can be strange indeed. Usually a combination of the wide eyed view we are taught in grade school and what they hear on the right wing radio talk shows. As proof that lack of knowledge can be bliss for that person but hell on the rest of the world. i'd like to know who could ever get the idea that Israel, other than a from the "American" jewish community, have helped built this country. Israel is there to build itself, control the middle east and keep it unstable for american oil money and the high priced oil that comes from that. And we, the tax payer, pay a high price for our private Israeli mercenaries, and our arms industry thanks u. No, US, no Israel; and that is leaving out the Arabs. They have never been able to make it on their own. It is one of the biggest propaganda lies of the world.

Now I'll be called a anti semite. Most use that word to refer to jews. WRONG. The Arabs are just, and even more semite than Jews. But, too many people are conditioned to scream, "anti-semite jew hater at the first negative comment directed at the Jews. Israel is a master at deception. I, for one, admire their spin. Their greatest is the "terrorists"(there were no greater "terrorist" than the jews through out their history not just before independence, and since) phrase; bushy, or his thinkers, have push that to the limits and taken away most of our freedoms, that we once held sancrosant, with the faintest of protest. We pay the price for lack of diligence.

I'll just give u a very small piece of history-it would be of benefit to u to check my facts out, about those terrible killers from Islam.

When Islam took over the middle east and North Africa in the 7th & 8th centuries the people were under such a repressive christian empire that any other religion and all other christian religions not under Constantine's idea of christianity, were a death sentence. And, taxed to poverty. Islam allowed all religions and though they taxed only people that were not of there faith there taxes were lower than before. Jews, Christians, Moslem and others had their religious buildings side by side. And glad to be out from under the repressive Christians- they were to busy killing more of each other, for their riches, than they did other religions.
It was not until the around 1000AD that a Christian religious fanatic bishop from Egypt(?) declared Islam the worship of the devil and destroyed a mosque in Jerusalem (for its wealth) that the trouble started with the crusades etc.

One of my blogs (actually many) have disappeared. Like the one were I talk about how our industrial build-up along with the railroads to open the west was payed for by money from the opium trade. We always, in those days, followed the British. The BIG cattle ranches of the west were owned and financed by the British and their opium money. that's where they got the capital for so fast an industrial revolution.

My favorite, President Roosevelt (died on my birthday 4-12-45) came from a big monied family; money made in the opium trade in China. One of the things u will not learn in our schools, and because of that, and the naive belief that we are so pure, , and the negative consequences allows so much unchallenged corruption in our otherwise great way of government.

Government are not "good" as they are a repressive institution by nature. Our form is one of the few that allows these repression by electing people who do it for their own needs and fool us into thinking the opposite. Bushy and friends, like Imus and Rush on right wing talk radio, care nothing for America, just their own pockets. They are the ultimate lyres. Remember Rush saying, 'THEY SHOULD EXECUTE ALL DRUG USERS?" This, as he was sending his maid out to get illegal drugs for himself. He knows what brings in the ratings, lies, for his big money. He needs to be fired as much as Imus along with the rest of their type, but the media doesn't want any other side to reveal the truth about what's happening with these illegal wars and gas prices. Remember, it is easy to figure out, leave ur heart where it belongs and use ur mind. It's the money honey. Follow the money as deep throat once uttered.